Who you calling a cry baby?

I have always hated crying, I sometimes feel uncomfortable when people cry not quite knowing what to do. Personally, I have always thought crying was seen as a sign of weakness and I was not keen to let other people see they had got to me.


However, as I have got older something has happened and I cry pretty much all the time! Sad films, I can feel the tears coming, when I heard Amy Winehouse's new song I got choked up. When I get ultra stressed, the waterworks start, after having an argument once with someone they said I turned the waterworks on to get sympathy, nope really didn't, can't seem to control it.


I'm not entirely sure what has happened to me for this change to occur.

I used to be able to keep the tears at bay, keeping them in a special place to come out in private or not at all. But now I can find it really difficult keeping them in which can be quite embarrassing, when trying to keep cool.
Recently for work I spoke to a woman whose son had died. She had invited me into her home to pay tribute to him. It was always going to be difficult, she spoke about him through laughter and tears, and when I left I couldn't help but burst into tears. I didn't know him but I felt bad for her, and could feel her pain. I suppose in some situations you put yourself in their shoes and you can 't help but be overwhelmed.


My boyfriend couldn't understand why I was crying afterwards but when you are in a highly emotional and charged situation like that it is very hard not to get caught up.

I do seem to cry pretty much all the time and I have no idea why. It is almost as if at some point I opened the emotional doors and the tears started flooding and haven't been able to stop.

I'm not sure if I see it as a sign of weakness anymore though, I find it quite a release. If I am frustrated or stressed if I have a good old wail I usually feels heaps better after.

At the end of the day who cares! So what yes I am a cry baby!

Drama, drama, drama

I watch and love shows like Gossip Girl, The OC, Buffy and back in the day Dawson's Creek. However, if my life was that dramatic I think I would have aged a hundred years and be constantly grey, their lives are just one drama after another.

I wonder why life can’t be easy, clear and in black and white. I know that peoples’ lives aren't as dramatic as these shows but why does life have to be so complicated some times. Gone are the days of old when everything was simple, replaced with hard decisions and inner turmoil. An easy task becomes complicated when human emotion comes in to play and nothing is ever as easy as it seems.

Even in films life becomes simplistic, boy meets girl, they fall in love are separated but we all know in the end that they will be living happily after.

In programmes like Gossip Girl, there are more twists and turns than a country winding road. In many ways the dramas do represent a slice of life: heartache, heartbreak and relationships. The clothes and schemes are probably a little out of most people's grasp but the feelings and emotions are probably pretty close.

In that way I suppose you could use these shows as your relationship bible and take what they have done wrong and not do it. It may sound strange but then we could learn from the mistakes of Blair and Serena.

For example, Blair and Chuck know they cannot be apart but they cannot be together until they return to the power people they were. Chuck the big businessman with an empire to match and Blair an independent powerful woman. What can we learnt from this I hear you shout... well you have to know who you are before you can be with someone else.

Vanessa and Dan showed us that people who have been friends for years cannot be boyfriend and girlfriend, too many issues.

Nate and Serena thought they were meant to be, she nearly lost her best friend as Nate was Blair's (best friend) boyfriend, however, they thought they were happy, but timing wasn't right and there love was not meant to be. I think this one is more about karma, fun and exciting is all and well when it has to be in secret but at the end of the day a relationship is more than that.
Ah Gossip Girl, I maybe deluded in thinking this but in a time of need I cannot think of anything better than watching a bunch of rich kids running around New York when all you want to do is cry and eat chocolate.